Settling on life...

Don't take offers you really don't want. I have applied for at least 50 jobs (at least) this week alone. Some of them I was excited about, but many I could care less about. I had 4 job interviews from things I applied for last week. None of them I was interested in. One even asked me, "why did you apply for this when you talk like you want something else?"
The simple answer to her question is that I didn't know that it wasn't what I wanted.

When you know what you want, when you finally have a clear vision of what you want, why should you settle for something less than that? If you do you will only get stuck in some downward spiral on a roller coaster taking you away from where you want to be.

Same thing goes for relationships. If you have a clear vision of what you want in someone else, search until you find that person. Don't settle for the one who is right there, just because he is right there. At least, I could never do that.

You should hold out for what you want, because inevitably there is something out there that is exactly what you want and looking for exactly you... be it job, or relationship.

Mouse Attack

Sunday night I go over to Tom and Amy's place since Lauren (who is house/puppy sitting) has been having a difficult time with Cooper. Its cool... Lauren is a cool girl and I miss Cooper, so I go over to keep them company.

Lauren and I catch up, she debriefs me on whats been going on. Apparently she has already had to deal with Cooper being sick and out of his element, and mice attacks. We decide that sushi and wine are a perfect remedy for this. We order the sushi and go in quest for wine. Once we have accomplished our goals, we head home and dig in.

We get half way through our dinner and Lucy (the cat) walks out of the kitchen with something hanging out of her mouth. EEEEK!!! Its a mouse tail... Lauren runs to get the broom and dustpan, and we yell at Lucy to drop it. She does... and its still alive. The mouse scurries around the floor and we both jump on to furniture. Some mouse catchers we are.

The mouse runs behind the chair and we try and scare it out, but apparently its good at hiding. We forget about it temporarily and just drink more wine. Then the mouse decides to come out and play again. This is no good: two drunk girls, a mouse on the loose, a sick dog and a cat cowering under a bench. Stupid cat. Lauren yells "Maura, if I have to stay here with the mouse, youre staying with me."

So we both eventually turn in after we are satisfied that the mouse is well hidden until morning...

Life as We Know It

The longer I work in film (well the dramatic arts, since worked in theatre first), the more I realize the stories I help bring to life are less fiction than I was originally taught. Sure, the stories are all made up, but the situations are more realistic than we could ever imagine them to be. It would seem that film is life with all the boring parts cut out.

Take any day of my life, cut out the nonsense boring moments of sitting around doing nothing or playing on the Internet, compress all the interesting moments from several days or weeks, add a nice little twist to spice things up a bit, and voila you have yourself a movie.

Of course its not that simple. Good screen plays take careful planning, crafting, working and reworking to make it what one would consider quality. Complicated matter scripting is.

Then again, life is complicated. We spend half our time planning how we want things to end up, and the rest of the time cleaning up messes when things don't go our way... which they never do. Life sneaks up on you and it would seem that the best movies reflect those moments where life takes you by surprise... in any shape or form... with any outcome, good or bad... in any situation or time...

Film is life with all the boring moments cut out...

A Continuing Adventure

So I have been in the city now 3 months, though it seems like so much longer. Time really begins to escape you here. Half the time I dont even know what day of the week it is. That, though, is a hazard of my industry. When you're working 5-6 days a week, super long hour and not really on a consistent sleep schedule, its easy for time to get away.

Life is a grand adventure though, and I wouldn't change it for the world. The time has come for me to really think through things a little here. As much as I love being able to go back and forth between costumes and production I feel like there comes a time when I need to pick some sort of direction and use the other path as a fall back and or break from day to day work.

I love costuming, its is amazing, fun, I have a talent for it and with the right people it is an amazing environment. The only problem is that its only one focus. I really like to be able to play in different areas an have a broader idea of what is going on.

This is why I am even considering production end. Production has to know what is going on in all different departments, not to mention the amount of creative problem solving that has to be done in order to make things happen. Its an ADD kids dream job.

Which path do I want... I guess I have to think more on this one.